Just another Alkie's Story
My drinking days were done in a very selfish way.
Never was there a day of love.
All filled with hatred and pain.
My mind was always thinking of alcohol.
That filthy substance that causes pain
To the alcoholic's very brain
Making him quite insane.
For causing suffering and pain
To the ones you love in life
You were always in strife.
Your life was always unmanageable.
You were slowly destroying yourself physically and mentally.
You had insane thoughts.
You couldn't understand people that didn't drink alcohol.
You didn't understand your drinking.
You couldn't understand or believe you had a drinking problem.
Then you faced up to the fact that you were and always would be
an alcoholic until the day you died.
Sober or drunk
Whatever the case may be.
When you drank alcohol or took drugs
You didn't worry about your appearance.
All you were worried about was where and when
you were going to get your next drink or drugs.
You were moving around from town to town.
Always by yourself.
- Keeping alert and on the lookout for imaginary danger.
When I drank alcohol or took drugs
I was in a world of my own.
I went from being a quiet person to a violent one.
From a shy person to a talkative one.
I went from a lovable person to one filled with hatred.
From being friendly and generous to being very selfish.
All because of alcohol
Which was destroying my very soul.
Alcohol is a destroyer of, love and respect.
It destroys the body, the mind and most of all the soul.
I found Alcoholics Anonymous and they accepted me and I them.
At first I couldn't understand what was said.
Alcoholics Anonymous gave me back my confidence and self-respect
That alcohol had taken away from me.
From the very start of attending their meetings
I saw a change in my appearance and behaviour.
All my insane thoughts and remorse started to disappear.
I talked to people I loved and said I was sorry.
They have forgiven me.
There are some that won't forgive.
I don't blame them but I don't worry about it.
What is done is done.
It would take me a lifetime to make amends to all I have hurt.
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