My name is Suzie (aka Fractal), and I am the webmistress/owner/moderator/ administrator of the FyrenIyce list, website and talker, or MOO as they are called. In other words, I guess I'm head bipolar honcho in these parts
. I was diagnosed as Bipolar I when I was 16, but I wasn't informed of my illness until my mother (then living with me) told me of the diagnosis just before she died of lung cancer--I'd just passed my 42nd birthday.
I've been referred to as being cat-like. Friends swear I must have 9 lives like a cat or else I'd have died long ago because of my erratic, dangerous behaviors. My specialty is manic rage, and I thank it for hospital stays, lost friendships, loss jobs, heavy alcohol and drug abuse, suicide attempts and oh my! so many other wonderful experiences! But I survived somehow, and once I knew why I was as I was, I went to a psychiatrist, was started on lithium and paroxetine (Paxil, Aropax), and have done pretty well since then.
Well, perhaps I ought to tell the truth here and say that I've done as well as this blasted curse will let one do. I also seem to be blessed with friends and/or others who quite happily tolerate my quirky nature. Some even seem to thrive on it...like my sexy, chain-smokin' system's analyst sweetie who seems to take it all in stride. Or maybe it's all just bipolar code, I mean binary code to him...010101010101...updownupdownupdownupdown...ain't so different now that I think of it...hmmm. Then there's my greatest supporter of all! My champion advocate, equally whacked out, incredibly complicated daughter...Kristy! If I have a soul-mate, it surely is her. [HI KRISTY!! mR. rIcK!! and Princess Owly!! <HUG! wave>] And of my oldest daughter Charity [who is net-phobic <wave, HUG!!>)], when we are together, the bonds of time and distance seem to evaporate instantly. Congratulations on that $40,000.00 per annum job honey! You go Char!!!
So there ya have it--the major players in my game of life: my wonderful bratlings and the most supportive, intuitive, sensitive partner on the face of this earth. And that's why this site, the MOO, and support list are here as well. They are here to provide that support you may not be getting from any other quarter.