Matt, my brother…

I've stopped trying to understand why things happen the way they do. I know that life is made up of moments. Some good, some bad. Some we wish we could take back, and some we wish we could experience again. Some we hold on to and some we let go. Most that should never be forgotten.

I think you and smiles go hand in hand because I can't remember a moment I was with you without one. And those are the moments I cherish the most. Those are the moments I want back. Those are the moments which help me forget about everything...So I will wait for those moments again...

I think a moment where time stands still and everything you've ever worried about seem to disappear, is rare. So how did you create them so often? I don't think I will ever know the answer to that...I don't want to know. I just want to share those moments again. I want to smile and laugh with you again. But no matter how hard I look I can't find those moments on my own. You have to help me find them brother...because it won’t work without you...

So I will wait for you because it's your time now...I will let you have your time because you always let me have mine...just don't keep me waiting for too long because a lot of moments are passing me by...you should be sharing them with me again. I feel guilty you are not here to share them, to be a part of them...

Is there a word greater than miss? Because that's what I feel right now...I think family and friends complete the puzzle that is you and if a piece of that puzzle is taken away, a part of you is taken away also. There's a feeling of emptiness. It's the worst feeling I know because I can't control it. I can't fill that gap. I can’t get rid of this feeling. I can't put the missing piece back to the puzzle. Only you can do that for me…

Your work isn't finished yet...far from it. You and I both know that. When you're ready you can continue your journey. Fill it with many more moments and memories just like you always have. You're like me. You're still searching for that one perfect swing. But we all are, aren't we? You're like me. You'll keep swinging and swinging until you find it...or until it finds you...

I want to be there with you when you do find it. When you find that perfect swing...even if it takes a lifetime...I will wait...

When you find it, I want to tell you that all is right with the world...

Your friend always…

Rob.