Just Say Yes.

That's right, tonight is Cure night. I had Radiohead lined up but wasn't in the mood for feeling depressed (yes I do see the irony). So last night I had plenty of sleep but I just couldn't be bothered at work. Weird hey. Well not really. But when I got home I did cook a roast and cut out something ready to sew. I should feel accomplished right? I dont feel anything. I dont know why. All I can see is routine and routine. I see the necessity of it but by nature resist it instead of trying to work with it. I'll learn I suppose. A whole life lived without routine is going to make it difficult to adjust to. I just wish I had a little more time to do what I want. I dislike squeezing my life around someone elses hours. Maybe things will be easier when I feel a bit more in control of them. I'm still learning how to live on my own. The loneliness isn't in being alone, its in having to rely 100% on yourself to get things right.