FUCKING BRILLIANT.

Now that iinet member ftp is working again in PASV mode (as Blogger in its brilliant wisdom doesnt allow the option of active), I can blog again. Hurray for you!

I am going to talk about how fucking seriously shit this year has been. Seriously, I am an optimist and every year up until now I have been sorry to see go. I HOPE THIS ONE DIES IN A HEDGE.

Let us look at what happened this year that sucked:

1. Masters. This was truly awful, underfunded, no one in my class spoke English and what I thought would be a real challenge, wasn't.
2. MTIL. The lecturer who had been an inspiration while as a lecturer, and a sleazy bastard as an employer, adding to my already bad disillusionment.
3. My uncle dying. As if my Dad and his Mum dying wasn't enough, his own brother had to go and die this year too, just to dent their family even more. At the funeral they seemed decimated - three people is a lot to be missing.
4. serp and his dad finding their granny near death in her flat.
5. serps lovely lovely granny dying.
6. Locking myself out of my shiny new flat on the second day of moving in.
7. Getting a job and realising that it wasn't what I wanted from my life AT ALL.
8. Giving myself and serp food poisoning.
9. Getting my drink spiked.
10. MY FUCKING BRA UNDERWIRE STICKING OUT IN THE SPIN DRYER AND GOUGING A HOLE IN THE PLASTIC LID SENDING SHAVINGS OF PLASTIC ALL THROUGH MY CLOTHES. WHAT THE FUCK. AS IF THAT DOESN'T CAP OFF A FUCKED UP YEAR. FUCKING HELL.

And thats not even taking into account all the fucked shit that happened to my nearest and dearest. Okay, just to be balanced about things, here are the good things about 2004.

1. I am still alive.
2. I am still with serp.
3. Everyone ELSE is still alive.
4. There are nice people at work.
5. I am still alive.
6. My friends at The Grove and beyond are ACE.
7. I have some money (more than before anyway).
8. I can't think of what to put here.
9. Or here.
10. Or here.

And Cat, back at you mate and to you all, he is so right. If I wasn't friends with you guys I wouldn't be in a good place.

If you're still reading, I would like to compile a FUCKED LIST OF 2004 so please all post on your blogs the fucked up shit that happened to YOU and your loved ones this year and I will make a big long list to prove my case to the universe about how FUCKED UP 2004 was and how 2005 should be rad.

Here are my new year resolutions that I will break on Jan 2.

1. I will stop letting low confidence or lack of experience stop me from doing something. Reluctance is just a symptom of it.
2. I will stop caring about wanting to be rake thin.
3. I will try to look on the positive side of life.
4. I will pursue my dreams.
5. I will look after my money.

Pretty boring but seriously, I dont have high expectations for anything anymore.