Let me tell you what I remember

Let me tell you what I remember,
Memories of vivid and slender.
I remember the pain in my bed,
I remember the plate to my head.

I remember the stitches, the fighting, the pain.
I remember going insane.
I remember the screaming, and the threats to be killed.
I remember one time when the winter had chilled.

I remember the smiles and the happiness of your face.
Your inner beauty could not be traced.
I remember leaving you all alone.
Then only speaking once on the phone.

Let me tell you what I remember,
Growing up with you on the bender.
You came home drunk, and you attacked me.
Monday, Sunday, Wednesday too.
No matter what day it was, I remember you.

I remember you helped me, and I learnt to ride
I think of those moments – the happiest of my life.
The laughs the fun, the happy boy.
Riding around on the bike, the toy.

Oh, let me tell you what I remember.
Each Christmas, fighting, each birthday dying.
My presents – yours, I had no right to play.
Christmas was yours in EVERY way.
Break them, give them back. No good to the.

But at least you smiled, so one was happy.
But I remember being a baby, and popping balloons.
All alone, in my room.
Colours bright, and all new.
New born baby, whoo hoo.

But let me tell you what I remember.
I remember every moment of being alone,
I remember ever thought of wanting to die, but can only cry.
I remember the taunts the teasing the abuse that was pleasing.
I remember I once had the nerve to try.

I remember a friend, stayed over one night.
We played and played, until late into the night.
Lego, and blocks, and lots of laughs.
Sometimes I think back, the happiest times of my life.

Let me tell you what I remember, because it still hurts
The yelling the screaming, and the burns.
I remember each time I put that bag on my head.
Crawled deep down under my bed.
I hid from the yelling and the fighting and co.
Just a little boy, to frightened to say NO.

I remember how easy it was to bring me a smile
Scott – McDonalds. But only a short while.
The new Lego, chocolate, and lollies.
But the smile goes, soon with the treat.

So many things that I still remember.
But its nothing compared to the betrayal now.
When I'm old what will I remember?
I only fear, what happened when I already forgot.

I remember everything.

(It’s the things you cant remember that could be worse)